Last week I awoke and decided I needed more support because I may not lose weight but it is always on my mind and the only reason I cannot do it is the breast cancer treatment. So I joined weight watchers. Their support makes me happy even if I don’t lose weight and it costs only 50.00 dollars a month, not to bad. They have a new program called Pointsplus and you can eat all the fruit you want and most vegetables for free, no points. That is very healthy. Plus I get to listen to a leader that has been there and that is really good leadership.
Today is Monday the best day to respect the beginning of a new week. Last week, the week of Valentines Day was dreadful. I ate meat during the week, I didn’t lose weight, I felt terrible because I was alone, I did my taxes and felt terrible again because I’m single. It was awful. The thing about counting calories is that it doesn’t work any better for weight loss than just eating mindfully and everyone says it is more important to eat mindfully. I think that I could watch calories for a week but not longer. There isn’t anything real that I can do if I am not losing weight because I am keeping my journal. I wish I could have a better morning routine and I wish that I could eat more vegetables. I did something important and ordered a fitbit from REI. I am a lucky girl. Instead of walking half an hour everyday, I will start small and see how many more steps I can walk everyday. Eat mindfully and walk some steps. Eat more vegetables. These are important desires to accomplish. I did eat at organic restaurants four times but I also ordered out for terrible Chinese food and then ate it. I know one thing for sure I think life is going worse than it is because of the feeling of chemotherapy in my brain, but it isn’t. Life is not going that badly. Respect that it is Monday, pick yourself up and start all over again.
If I win my court case then I will go live somewhere nice. If I become a pescadarian during the week and only eat meat on the weekend, then I will improve my health even mote.
Last year I did everything I was supposed to do. I went to chemotherapy , took every medical test and all the medications. I went to the pharmacy and read some great books. I saved money every month and improved my credit score. I improved my diet and my health by switching to real foods. I am very proud of myself. I have never done so much in one year.
Okay it’s all about goals whether it’s budgeting or weight and my weight hovers too much to feel good but so does my budget until something budges . So, everyday I will consider if I met my goals around diet and calories then I’ll check it off just like in my checkbook. Will I meet my goals every week? I must be weighed for chemotherapy so I don’t think I should feel worse than at least that. I think this is a good plan and that just like with my budget everything will just barely work out.
I’ve gotten bored with the same restaurants that have organic food and I think I’ve thought of a solution to this problem. Next time I go out, I will order something that I have never had before. Whenever I go to my favorite organic restaurants, I order the same thing, usually the breakfast. Well, it is time to eat new foods.
I dipped below 230 today naked. I am so excited. I thought I was in a slump but then I started drinking more water. That did it. No I’m not sure if I’m going to celebrate this or wait until the last day of the month. I’m thinking about it. I might decide to buy a book to read on amazon but then I want one to read not just look through.